Sunday, September 16, 2012

Letters to Baby #7 - July 19, 2012

Dear Baby-to-be,
Today we saw you for the first time! We had our first ultrasound to make sure all was well in there. I wasn't sure what to expect since this was significantly earlier than our first ultrasound last time around. When the ultrasound started, sure enough, there you were! Things were a little hard to make out, but we could definitely see a head, a little body, and a tiny flickering heartbeat. We got to hear your heartbeat, too! It was nice to hear that sound again after all these years. There's nothing better, actually. That was always my favorite part of doctor's appointments last time. It was so funny seeing you for the first time, and hoping it was the first of many millions of moments with you. There's still the fear that it's not you and that will be the only time we see that sweet, tiny baby, but I really hope it's you and you're doing well. You measured perfectly, though. We pretty much know when you were conceived—within a day or two—and your size hit that target perfectly. That was good to see. It could all still mean nothing as we have a long way to go and so much can happen, but it's good to know that so far things seem to be going well.

I'm hoping we get another ultrasound sometime in the next month or two when I switch back to my regular doctor (from the one who helped us along this path), because I'd love to see you again. But, if not, I will gladly wait until the midway point to see you once you have recognizable parts and we can answer the BIG question—whether you're a boy or a girl. Admittedly I'd love a girl to balance things off in our household. I'm better at playing dolls than sports, and girls clothes are SO cute. I'd just like a girl to bond with. I'm grateful for the relationship I have with my mom and treasure the times we spent together. Even though we both hated shopping, those shopping days out together were special. I liked standing on the other side of the counter while she baked. It's not that I can't involve Jacob in activities like that, but I'm just not sure that's his thing and I think I'd have a better shot with a daughter. I also feel like I'd compare my kids less if they were different genders, because we all know boys and girls are inherently different. At the same time, I'm preparing myself for another boy, and trying to focus on the fact that Jacob would love to have a brother, we already have boy stuff (although the seasons will be out of sync for sizes), and I know a little more what to expect with a boy. Aside from the boundless energy, boys are considered easier in the long run. We'll love you either way, but forgive me if it takes a little time to adjust if you're a boy. I'll get there, I swear.

Anyway, it was good to see you today. Stay healthy but take it easy on me. I'm still tired and not feeling great, but today definitely perked me up a bit! Can't wait until next tine!


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